ride it like you... STOLE IT!!!

i just need to get this out of the way:
i am a to-do list junkie. any kind of homemade list, actually. i make them
all the time! made in a flurry, then fallen behind a table, or ferreted away in a notebook. looking at someone's to-do lists could be more intimate than at their diary! can anyone give advice on turning a to-do list into doing?!


neil says i am the last one to hear about this, but in case anyone else is slow on the uptake, here is the most awesome thing: crying while eating.
ironic i was out of the loop on this one...
anyway, i'm getting the wanderlust. two people suggested we should move to BERLIN.

{{{ liz i wonder if you can guess who the second is, hint "worst idea possible"... HA!}}}

i'm sure i'm not the only one who wants to escape new york, and stuff.

anyway, what is it with that place?!?! everyone is totally ga ga over it. my friend will says it's "everything new york pretends to be, but for real!" i don't know if that's what i'm looking for at all, but the aspect of synth-punk, or whatever, could unleash my performative urges, like they did for him.

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so the other day, again, i got carded for cigarettes! this doesn't happen much, but i've been studying when exactly it happens and i've figured out key factors that lead to the carding:

1. where am i? in maine, i get carded a lot: is this because teenagers look older, more weathered by the elements there, or because people adhere more strictly to state requirements on carding, due to their no-nonsense maine-ah dispositions (take no guff!)?

2. am i sleepy or have i been crying? if yes, the slighly puffy eyes may promote a youthful appearance, OR a suspicious, ne'er-do-well one. or maybe shopkeepers want to make a bad day worse? in any case, ALWAYS get carded.

3. am i smiling? smiling sweetly prompts "can i see your ID [because your manipulative smile makes me think you are hiding something]"
high schooler tip: a subtle, absentminded smile allays ALL skepticism!

am i missing anything?


other thoughts today:

*the internet makes it frighteningly (wonderfully??!?!?) easy to incorporate other peoples' ephemera into one's own inventory

* hand crafts are (getting) really popular!?? i heard that at the bowery poetry club they have drunk knitting!!! i haven't knit since middle school, but i can learn again...

*i miss my family

* new age, hippy shit is also everywhere. everywhere i look, i see one of those tie-dye shirts, hell, i have one myself!!! each body is said to radiate a particular color aura (more noticable to those in on the astral plane). i think mine is slate blue, or maybe something unknown to physical sight, because some people have those, too. your fancies can change your color. so, everyone, practice picking up on those colors, and we can reach new heights of mutual con-passion! ha!!


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